Torture me Torture you by Dark-Eternal-Storm, literature
Literature
Torture me Torture you
though you feel pain,
You welcome it with open arms,
Though you cry, you rejoice those tears,
I try to turn away,
I feel such sadness for you,
If only there was an inbetween,
But for now i can't even give you kind words,
You want them,
Thrive for them,
But you shrink away and welcome the torture,
I do not understand, I may never,
But i will always ask, Do you want your friend?
Vow To Be Broken by Dark-Eternal-Storm, literature
Literature
Vow To Be Broken
Last night I closed my eyes,
Praying for us both.
Slowly drifting off to sleep,
I think of you again.
How much I have cared,
But only from a far.
I waited to be shown the way,
To only wake alone.
A searching glance at the day,
I wished you would call.
Again I prayed to God for us,
To have you cloud my thoughts.
Walking alone on the grassy yard,
You danced into my mind.
Thoughts began to run together in my mind,
As I realized you were my prayers.
You had asked of the vow and now I know,
That in my heart I've already broken it.
Slowly you close my eyes,
My body resting in your arms,
The red stains begin to spread,
As you cry you cry out my name,
But this time I'll not answer,
You waited so long to come,
Why now my love?
Laying me softly upon the bed,
Tears river like they never had before,
Stretching out beside my form,
Lasting kiss from your lips,
But I can't feel it no longer,
You waited so long to come,
Why now my love?
Drifting so far away from here,
Flowing, clouding fog wraps us both,
I'm sorry you never knew me,
At least you'll have a better life,
But I'll never get to hare it,
You waited so long to come,
Why now my love?
I sit here waiting,
That's all it ever is,
So alone I feel,
Lying down again,
Bored with life and you.
Tapping the desktop,
Waiting once more,
I guess no turn will come,
For just me and my friends,
I've only done this once, you're so unfair.
Begging and pleading,
I start to whine to you,
Just shut me up finally,
My turn has come to me,
Finally on but all are gone.
So I waited,
My patients gone,
Now they have left,
I'm glad you had your fun,
Because now once again, I'm alone.
As I sat there,
I felt your caress,
So soft and gentle,
It all felt so natural.
Dreams becoming real,
Finally holding you close,
I had wised for this so long,
Now true to only let go.
Praying to heal what I'd done,
To wash the tears away,
I created so many of them,
But now to only let someone else.
Wanting to care for you so much,
Maybe that was my problem,
Now you are truely happy once more,
Too bad I'm crying for the wrong reasons.
Looking at your picture,
It slowly fades and cracks,
I looked to you for help,
You were that saving grace,
We all need from time to time.
Now that caring is gone,
Or so that's how it feels,
Slowly floating away from you,
Praying now for this shell,
That's left of a once great friend.
Bowing my head with tears,
Frozen and scared of you,
Hurting beyond the meaning,
I cry out your name reaching,
To only grasp a ghost of nothing.
Back to Punk Rock Christianity by Dark-Eternal-Storm, literature
Literature
Back to Punk Rock Christianity
Gently caressing the plastic,
Crosses all around it,
Wondering what happened,
How I could've left that life,
For what I have now with me.
Grasping at the chains,
Brushing away the dust,
Putting on the old clothes,
Scriptures echo to me softly,
THis is who I am and want.
Smoothing out the fabric,
Feeling it rub once more,
Hard care bands worshiping,
The front of my shirts praying,
My old life screams to me now.
Looking in the mirror,
Smiling softly at the change,
Lowering my head for thanks,
Walking slowly away from the past,
Gazing at the future, this time bible in hand.
Back to Punk Rock Christianity by Dark-Eternal-Storm, literature
Literature
Back to Punk Rock Christianity
Gently caressing the plastic,
Crosses all around it,
Wondering what happened,
How I could've left that life,
For what I have now with me.
Grasping at the chains,
Brushing away the dust,
Putting on the old clothes,
Scriptures echo to me softly,
THis is who I am and want.
Smoothing out the fabric,
Feeling it rub once more,
Hard care bands worshiping,
The front of my shirts praying,
My old life screams to me now.
Looking in the mirror,
Smiling softly at the change,
Lowering my head for thanks,
Walking slowly away from the past,
Gazing at the future, this time bible in hand.
Current Residence: Texas....wonderful Favourite genre of music: EVERYTHING!!!! but mainly Hard Rock or Techno. Favourite photographer: jzsh <<good sunsets and stuff Operating System: Kitchen Knife Shell of choice: turtle! Wallpaper of choice: soft mattresses Skin of choice: my lil one's soft skin... Favourite cartoon character: am i not one? Personal Quote: "When life looks down...look up so it doesn't hit you"
So yeah...umm... thought i'd post a journal since i haven't done that in a while...about 3or 4 months....yep.
Well life is pretty boring unless you count all the times my kids are trying to give me a full head of gray hair...then yeah pretty boring. Got one of my wisdom teeth pulled today...Fun...and painful.
Umm...Oh! I posted a manip. on here and didn't mean to...did repost it to my other account where it was supposed to be. so if you'd like to fav it again head here: ~maiden13 (https://www.deviantart.com/maiden13)
Really want to do a couple avatars but need Flash...if any of you know how to get a hold of it please let me know!!! :D thanks!
oh and last month my adorabl
So i stopped drawing and writing poetry because i just didn't "feel" it anymore...more and more depressed and just trying to raise the kiddos...but the Dr. change one prescription and put me on "happy" pills and i'm doing a lot better...YAY!
I'm going to try and submit some stuff later on...key word try. cutting back on caffeine is really hard!
OH! Check out this awesome artist ~cleophus (https://www.deviantart.com/cleophus) that is just outstanding with painting and drawing!
So ~RTShields (https://www.deviantart.com/rtshields) tagged me....the horrible man :P :hug: oh well here you go.
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1. I was in the 4-H fair during school and showed my cats, i have about 6 or 8 plaques to prove it. :P
2. When i was younger i HATED shopping and it still annoys me sometimes.
3. I'm married to a computer software engineer.....scary right?
4. I have two children 4 and 1 yrs old...even scarie